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[09 Nov 2005|09:49pm] |
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Hey look, I never bitch on this thing. Well it's my fucking turn now, so all you little shit heads sit down and shut up.
I used to think things like friendships and relationships were about sharing things, both the good and the bad. But you know what I get? Used, does anyone care about what I want to do? Does anyone care how the fuck I feel? Hell no, everyone in my life is so busy using me and what I have that they have no time to think about how I am. So here is your one warning, the next time one of you people wants to use me as support for one of your angst trips or come over just to use my shit I will be telling you to fuck off and ignoring you.
Now if I get to feeling like dealing with all the idiots of the world again I'll let you guys know, but at this point that feels like a pretty big maybe.
Now go the hell away!
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| So yeah, I'm bored... Woo... |
[26 Oct 2005|10:06pm] |
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My test tracked 4 variables How you compared to other people your age and gender:
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You scored higher than 46% on Tastefulness |
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You scored higher than 66% on Originality |
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You scored higher than 31% on Deliberateness |
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You scored higher than 77% on Sexiness |
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[19 Oct 2005|06:00am] |
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Shadow of the Colossus, buy it, play it, love it.
That is all.
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[22 Sep 2005|03:06am] |
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So yeah I evacuated all the way up to Waco from Baytown, probably won't get more then a bunch of thunderstorms, etc.
Problem is my mother, my pets, some of my friends, my home, and all other things I care about are down there in the path of Rita. I just... I just don't know what I'll do if anything bad happens to any of them.
I want to be angry, I want to cry, I want to be hugged... I want this situation to go away.
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[18 Aug 2005|10:36pm] |
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There are lots of movies coming out this time of year, but one made me think of someone in particular. So I'm curious if Karol is able to/is going to see the movies March of the penguins. Well are you? Curious minds wish to know. ^^
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| Boo! |
[10 Aug 2005|12:21pm] |
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I had a mini-vacationy type thing from the 5th to the 10th(today), it was amusing.
Justin and Tommy came along, and were not complete asses. But they're still asses.
Anyways, we played a Pirate ship TCG where you have to pop out and build the ships, overall quite fun. We also played a multi player Zelda game, I was blue link and purple link followed close behind me almost the entire time... it was creepy. Archery wasn't very much fun, at least for me, but you guys know I'm a weakling so whatever. Hmmm... What else did we do... Played Resident Evil 4 a bit.
And last but not least, Justin hogged my laptop almost the entire time! XO
I am amused, but at the same time I want to hurt people. *looks between Tommy and Justin*
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[19 Oct 2004|03:14pm] |
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Your wings are BROKEN and tattered. You are
an angelic spirit who has fallen from grace for
one reason or another - possibly, you made one
tragic mistake that cost you everything. Or
maybe you were blamed for a crime you didn't
commit. In any case, you are faithless and
joyless. You find no happiness, love, or
acceptance in your love or in yourself. Most
days are a burden and you wonder when the
hurting will end. Sweet, beautiful and
sorrowful, you paint a tragic and touching
picture. You are the one that few understand.
Those that do know you are likely to love you
deeply and wish that they could do something to
ease your pain. You are constantly living in
memories of better times and a better world.
You are hard on yourself and self-critical or
self-loathing. Feeling rejected and unloved,
you are sensitive, caring, deep, and despite
your tainted nature, your soul is
breathtakingly beautiful.
Image is a painting by Natalya Nesterova,
source:ca80.lehman.cuny.edu/.../
images/fallen_angel.jpg
*~*~*Claim Your Wings - Pics and Long Answers*~*~*
brought to you by Quizilla
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[17 Oct 2004|02:40pm] |
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I try to avoid a person because they are a friend of a friend of mine, but I find this person really creepy in the way they obsess over certain people. I learned of this obsession by watch and interacting with this person in an area where my friend does not visit very often and have since been avoiding this person but being polite about it so as not to upset my friend. Sadly things did not work out so well this last time and I'm afraid my friend now dislikes me because I find their friend creepy and don't want anything to do with their friend.
I didn't mention any names on purpose, so unless the people involved care to mention their names I'd rather not for fear of causing more hurt feelings.
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| Do you love me? *big watery kitten eyes* |
[08 Oct 2004|02:58pm] |
Saw this, and copied it because it's fun to know how people think of you, so have fun.
x = yes
o = no
~ = Maybe, depends.
Would you ever...
() go out with me?
() give me your number?
() let me kiss you?
() watch a movie with me...even a really sappy one?
() let me take you out to dinner?
() drive me somewhere/anywhere?
() take a shower with me?
() listen to me if I called you crying even if you were out with all of your friends?
() buy me a drink if I didn't have money?
() take me home for the night, if I couldn't go home myself?
() listen to me ramble?
() let me sleep in your bed?
() sing car karaoke with me?
() leave a party with me?
() sit in the doctors office with me because I didn't want to go alone?
() re-post this for me to answer your questions?
() get me ice cream?
() answer the phone to hardly speak at all?
() get me out of jail?
() let me give you a piggyback ride?
() come pick me up at 3 am because my car ran out of gas in the middle of nowhere?
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[01 Sep 2004|07:03am] |
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Well I got to talk to her, turns out she was on the phone and has call waiting but doesn't know how to use it. But no biggie all is well, and I plan on calling her again today. Yay!
On a side note, I'm still trying to figure out who that second crush on that LJMeme.com thing is, so fess up!
That is all, carry on and have a good day.
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| *Pulls hair out* |
[31 Aug 2004|12:46pm] |
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Gah! I hate talking on the phone... But I miss her so much and the fact that nobody has answered the phone at her place is driving me batty. I'm sure it's like others have suggested and she went with her family on a short trip or something, yet I can't stop worrying. Argh! *yanks hair out* @_@
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[25 Aug 2004|07:46pm] |
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*cackles* That's too rich.
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| Well Poo |
[24 Aug 2004|02:58am] |
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I finally got around to putting down the info that I have so far for my planned MARPG character. That caused me to realize just how much information I'm lacking, and without that information the character would surely be rejected. Oh well, I’ll deal with it another day as I don’t like staying frustrated for long periods of time. No hurry after all.
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[23 Aug 2004|09:44pm] |
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Interestring... O.o
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[23 Aug 2004|05:45am] |
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Sesah
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| Life goes on. |
[19 Aug 2004|08:07pm] |
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Yes I know I haven’t updated this thing in nearly a year, but life happens and people forget. So on with the update. It has been a long year, with good and bad, with emotional ups and downs etc. Some points in it rise above the rest, those will be what I discuss in this post.
The beginning of this year had no real notable event that I can speak of, I had gotten laid off and found a temporary job for the time being. The day before I left for this years ACEN I was called and told I was being laid off from that job. No big deal right? Wrong, I had asked if I could get those days off over a month in advance and was approved. I reaffirmed that it was okay to take that time off a month in advance, then two weeks before, and then one week before. Yet still they said it was fine and to have fun, my boss even suggested I take the following Monday off so I wouldn’t be jet lagged coming into work. Well long story short, their reason for laying me of was because I was taking too many days off… Yeah I was and still am a bit annoyed about that.
On to ACEN; There was a lot to do, many dreamers to meet, and over all much fun to be had. I ended up having to switch around rooms a few times, which was rather annoying but at the same time I couldn’t leave friends hanging just because we weren’t arriving the same day. I got to hang around with Mischa a bunch, always a plus, and a few other dreamers like Karol, Noelle, Zen. Got to meet and commission two of the artist there who also work for the dream, Andrea Koupal the eternally smiling one, and Nezumi who likes to bite people. The con was fun, we didn’t have room to sit in artist Alley like last year, pity. On the up side Karol, Zen, and I had a wonderful round table discussion the last night of the con. As well as Karol labeling me “most huggleable dreamer -ever-“ and other such fond memories that I shall keep for a long time to come.
I still haven’t found a job, and while talking with an employer who stated they needed qualified individuals while we were talking and then told me they weren’t going to hire me I got flat out annoyed because I was over qualified. Of course his reasoning was, and you must remember this is southern Texas, that my long hair made me look like a drug dealer… needless to say I was banned from there after where I told him to shove it, but I didn’t really want to work there anyway. Now I’m looking into semi-short hairstyles that I might be comfortable with for the time being. So if anyone has any suggestions let me know, okay?
On a final note, in an odd twist of fate I met some interesting a few weeks back. Funny how just knowing about something that most don’t really understand can spark a friendship. Then as we learned more about each other and how much in common we have, and began to have feelings for the other. After being prodded by mutual friends on both sides with both came clean about how we felt. Since then we’ve been close although the terms “boyfriend and girlfriend” don’t really apply at this point as we’re just good friends. But we agreed that taking it slow and getting to know each other better is the best course to take, as we’ve both been hurt in the past.
So even though life hasn’t been all that great for me, things are still looking up because of great friends and someone close to my heart.
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[02 Sep 2003|08:13am] |
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You know you need new tires on your car when making a simple right turns send you half way into the other lane and over the curb...
Here I was being extra careful because I know the roads are wet from the recent tropical storm, and I stop at the stop sign on a turn I've made a bunch of time. I pull around the curd at maybe 5-7mph, and the back of my car skids half way into the other lane, then end up hopping the curb with the right side of my car. And let me tell you, in a low laying sports car, '92 Camaro to be exact, that screws up the bottom on that side. Now I know I need new tires badly, just there is no many for new tires...
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[15 Aug 2003|08:52am] |
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What Cosplay Type Are You?
Yay! I'm sexah bishi Rock-Starness. Scary thing is I do wear stuff like that on a regular basis, so would it still be considered cosplay or just weird?
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